亏钱菜狗已黑化

"Late-night Art and Skill Memoirs - Working Hard to Support the Family"
I will study trading techniques and really make money. I will say goodbye to my past self, shake hands with my present self, and have fearless expectations and faith in my future self, because the meaning of my hard work is the meaning of my life, to make myself, the people who love me, and the people I love live a good life.
Whenever I feel confused about the stagnation of life, I will read my past diaries and feel them, because it can help me find the obsession, passion and motivation of the past, and it will not make me lose my original intention. Don't think that I am so proud now, because I have long passed the days of being spurned by many people and unable to sleep at night, because most people look down on me, just like someone commented on me and scolded me for making machines or something. If it were three years ago, it would really hurt me, because at that time I was full of positive hope for myself. Three years later, I have been polished to look down on this. This is the warning line in my heart. People can deceive themselves but not time. Time is the best teacher. Now I am immune to all poisons and I can play with myself without feeling heartache. I chose a job that many people despised for me in exchange for the life I want, so any backlash in the later period must be accepted in full. Now, I have survived the hard days, and everything is getting better and better. I also want to work hard to learn to trade coins and make money. I don’t want to live a marginal life. I don’t want to do a job that others look down on.
Alas, I said fate...

"Late-night Reflection: Missing the Opportunity of Wealth"
This is a very real thing. I had close contact with this in 2021, or I almost had contact with it. He really wanted to help me and take me out to play. I can recall it and confirm that he had no ill intentions. If I had not been so angry at the time and scolded him for killing pigs, I would have checked what he said on Baidu. I did not block him. I... Alas. Maybe, now I am really a rich woman, and I will not go into the sea of ​​debt and cannot turn back. I think about it at night and I can't sleep in a trance. Things are not people, too many regrets...
I have a big Zhihu account. In 2021, my boyfriend was defrauded and posted a message to expose it. A senior medical student added me. I was a sophomore that year. He told me that he didn’t know what cryptocurrency was. I said it was a scam. I scolded him, and then I wanted to save him. I thought he was scammed. I didn’t know what it was. I couldn’t understand what he posted. I didn’t know what BTC was at all. I thought at the time that he was either going to scam me or he was scammed by someone else. I never tried to understand what he said. I didn’t really come into contact with it until 2024. Now I think he should not be a liar and he wanted to help me. It was me who didn’t understand what it was, so I scolded him and blocked him. If I hadn't been so impulsive at the time, if I had been more curious, I would have had some money two years ago. But life is like this. I tossed and turned in bed today and couldn't sleep because I came in and lost money. It has been bothering me. Suddenly I remembered this incident two years ago. I may have had close contact with some very magical things, people or things, but in the end they all passed by in a hurry. Everything is fate, and no one can control it. Maybe, this is fate. There is nothing to regret. When regret has become the norm in life, there is nothing I particularly want to keep. I may be intoxicated with the extravagance and unwilling to sober myself up. I can't look back and face my past self. I just want to walk around casually. Anyway, I rarely walk the path that most people take. I will create miracles randomly. It's just that I can't help feeling sad when I think of the past. Once you have seen the sea, all other waters are just puddles. Once you have seen Mount Wushan, all other clouds are just mists.

All along, after entering the cryptocurrency world, I have been blindly getting scammed back and forth. Many times, I felt like I would never see dawn in my life again. Later, many well-meaning people told me not to give up easily in life. I am very grateful for their words that encouraged me. Really, time and again, when I lost a total of 170,000 in debt, life was truly disappointing. Many times, I hated my life, and many times I wanted to start over. I felt like my life was a dark and chaotic mess.

Thank you, time, for teaching me a lot. I am even more grateful for those who, during my lowest moments, did not laugh at me but encouraged and helped me. When this brother told me these things at night, I sincerely thanked him from the bottom of my heart. I felt useless, knew nothing, couldn't play, and couldn't help others with anything, but there were always people who secretly messaged me to encourage me. I sincerely wish these people earn a lot of money.

Hope, hope, in the next few years, may fate be a little kinder to me, and stop kicking me down to the bottom.

I'm really happy to have started earning recently, averaging one oil per day, earning enough to buy groceries, I'm already very content. One oil a day, I believe I can get better in a few years, let's keep going!

In front is red, I earned twenty oil in these seven days, earned by myself! I will no longer rely on others. Recently, a big player took the initiative to add me, sigh, got hooked, invested and then lost it all on the same day, only had two hours in between, it was really sad. At that time, the big player said that motivation was needed for trading, sent a lot of personal private photos, I tried everything to recover some of my losses, did my best.

I don't want to show the chat records anymore. Since I started trading coins, letting a man trade coins, giving accounts or transferring oil is something I will never forgive myself for in my life. I always had a lucky mentality, I kept thinking it was just my bad luck, just wait a little longer, I would meet a big player who would help me break even. This kind of psychological encouragement made me feel like I had found a lifeline every time, but I kept falling into it again and again. After failing a while ago, I stopped looking. Later, I saw some social news saying that the market was good again, so I opened it to take a look, and I found that relying on myself still made money.

I don’t know how to turn this little chick pecking for grain into 170,000 to break even, so let's leave it at that. In a month, I can't even earn a hundred oil, I... lost more than twenty thousand oil, it's painful.

The market is getting better!!! I want to seize the opportunity to break even! Recently, I've been seeing the market take off everywhere! I know my chance to break even has come!!! I'm gathering money to make a big move to break even!

Is there anyone willing to date me?

I can do everything, and I'm obedient. It's really frustrating to think about losing money in trading late at night. Who can look at me? I'm not picky.

I've lost everything, yet I still withdraw, how funny. You come in and you'll be charging money, never withdrawn even once. Is making money really that easy?

Once a thousand oil, when I was deceived out of thousands of oil, did you ever think about how hard I earned that money? When the scammer cheated me, I repeatedly said that this money came from my efforts, over a hundred oil at a time. I sacrificed my health and body, and they always pretended to be very understanding, pushing you down the dead end time and time again.

I truly exited the crypto world after being scammed by a junior college student for seven thousand oil in January, and since then, my life has been in shambles. I have not been able to get back up. People are not made of iron; this incident hit me hard emotionally. My body was already severely compromised, and after that, I fell ill and then withdrew from the internet. I go through each day in a daze, not knowing what joy there is in living anymore.

Later, my mental state started to deteriorate. I can feel that I am not normal anymore. When I left this place, I only wanted to curse; there were no other thoughts or feelings. Now I find myself hating everyone. It's just an irrational hatred. I hate myself, I hate every living being, and I wake up every day feeling this hatred. There are some things I don't want to express; there's too much negativity. In short, I hate those who tricked me into trading cryptocurrencies. If I could be a good person, maybe I could live a little longer.

What to do if trading cryptocurrencies drives you crazy?

If the tiger doesn't show its power, do you think I'm a sick cat? I've been holding back for a year, swallowing my anger, thinking that being kind will bring wealth, but you, you really make me sick. Look at your record, a gambling fool, what do you even call yourself? The crypto world is truly chaotic, it distorts my appearance. I really don't want to pretend to be a lady anymore; from now on, I'll curse every day. Screw you!

More than a year ago, I didn't want to curse. A year later, I think it's just pure madness. With this kind of technology, why are you trying to carry others? Why don't you just go home and farm? I can play better than you, and I don't complain. What are you pretending for, playing like that? It's really disgusting to me. Everyone's out here messing around with carries. If you can't play, then don't play. If you want to play, then suffer the consequences yourself. Don't mess with others, you fool.

From now on, I won't engage with any of the garbage carry players. I'm fed up. If you can't play, just go play by yourself, don't fool others around, disgusting.

Some people shouldn't come out and mess with others if they can't play; if they lose themselves, that's one thing, but they also try to drag others down with them. It's truly disgusting; they just love to deceive people, it makes me want to throw up. I really think there's no need to investigate, you know what you are, and it honestly makes me feel sick. After playing for more than a year, I've seen a lot of disgusting people, it's nauseating. Stay away from my life; if you're trading coins, just do it yourself. No one should communicate or deal with each other. It's really bad, it's made me feel sick.

It's really hard when no one comforts me after failing to trade cryptocurrencies, Teacher Gong, please take care of me.

I don't even want to mention what exactly happened to me anymore. Over the past year, I've been going back and forth, hoping that others would take me to fly, always having a thief's heart that refuses to die. I was too foolish and deserved it; I shouldn't have harbored fantasies. I admit it myself. I won't engage with people in the crypto world anymore. I never thought that something would happen less than a week after I returned... Hahaha, truly my lifelong enemy.

From now on, just believe in yourself and don't trust anyone else to lead you. It's been over a year, and many times I've lost money and compromised my health to please others. Why do I rush into this? Perhaps it's the temptation of leverage—investing for others, thinking about doubling my returns, imagining turning thousands into tens of thousands. But if it were really that easy, wouldn't everyone have the chance to become wealthy?

Every failure has been due to seeking out big players. Since entering the cryptocurrency world, it has always been this way. I've had extreme doubts about myself, and the flaws of being timid and cowardly in my character have constantly affected me. I can't open large positions, so I can't make money. Many times, I've just borrowed my own money through others to try and increase my stakes, but I've often ended up with liquidations. It's been a year, countless times I've fallen and gotten back up again, recovering slowly after each blow, repeating this cycle.

I am always grateful for the people who have helped me in the past. Thank you for the kindness shown to me in this circle, which reminds me of those who treated me well when I was being scammed. I don't harbor that much hatred in my heart. I always feel sorry for those who have shown me kindness and haven't received anything in return, even though I've been scammed many times in this circle. My mindset has been distorted by these scams, and I can't remember those people clearly. I don't want to waste time thinking about those I dislike; I only remember those who have been kind to me.

I have failed again, feeling numb inside. I can't describe the feeling; it's not pain or regret—it's just that this situation no longer affects me deeply. I'm continuing to escape from here. Every time I come back, I get hurt and leave; it’s too painful. But I've grown up; if something makes me uncomfortable, I escape. I will disappear for a while again. I wish everyone makes big money. Keep it up.

I want to be my own boss. I don't want to take the exams to become a teacher because I won't make much money. I like cooking, and I'm torn between opening a snack shop or a dessert shop. I can't really make any elaborate dishes; I can only make home-cooked meals reasonably well. If I open something, it should be affordable. My cooking is also light, which is very suitable for people who are dieting and want to be healthy... What am I really suited for? I'm very conflicted and don't want to waste my time on a job that doesn't seem worthwhile.

Those who speculate on cryptocurrencies have developed anxiety. How is everyone dealing with it? Now that I'm back to speculating, it feels like I've returned to a time when I couldn't even enjoy my meals. But when I'm not speculating, I really miss the crypto world... I always want to come back and play...

Trading cryptocurrencies makes me feel like I'm in love again. I can't resist the temptation of genius traders... Sigh, I always can't help but have a crush; some people are really so skilled, casually making a profit with a single line that takes me over ten days to earn. Although I'm not very smart, I must work hard to please those who have skills to make up for my own shortcomings in finance. I really feel so happy right now.

I just met someone here, and I'm quite satisfied. Thank you, Binance, I'm very happy.

I used to know quite a few really nice people here, but I couldn't use that anymore, which made me lose contact with many of them. I don't know how they are doing now. I sincerely wish those good people to make a lot of money and live the life they want, happy every day, smooth every day. Thank you for encouraging and helping me when I was struggling with trading at first. I still haven't been able to earn any big money to give back...

I didn't study well, went to an ordinary school, and my reality is a salary of three thousand. I don't have any other skills. I can't rely on my youth, and dreaming of a more luxurious life seems out of reach. After starting trading, I always wanted to achieve great things and get rich, but I've always been suppressed. I've been tortured to the point of almost going crazy, going around in circles for a year, with no grand aspirations. I would be content just to make some pocket money.

But this year has passed... I actually have less confidence to open positions now... I want to earn more money in the future, invest in talented college students; they are all my teachers. I'm older than them, but they truly have skills and brains. I feel inferior.

Are there any stable traders that I know? I don't dare to play by myself anymore, I'm losing confidence, I don't dare to touch it, and I don't dare to open positions. I really want to meet a great trader to guide me...

I have worked hard myself. I failed, my hope... I feel like it's just bad luck for not meeting a master, but I won't give up...