From now on, just believe in yourself and don't trust anyone else to lead you. It's been over a year, and many times I've lost money and compromised my health to please others. Why do I rush into this? Perhaps it's the temptation of leverage—investing for others, thinking about doubling my returns, imagining turning thousands into tens of thousands. But if it were really that easy, wouldn't everyone have the chance to become wealthy?

Every failure has been due to seeking out big players. Since entering the cryptocurrency world, it has always been this way. I've had extreme doubts about myself, and the flaws of being timid and cowardly in my character have constantly affected me. I can't open large positions, so I can't make money. Many times, I've just borrowed my own money through others to try and increase my stakes, but I've often ended up with liquidations. It's been a year, countless times I've fallen and gotten back up again, recovering slowly after each blow, repeating this cycle.

I am always grateful for the people who have helped me in the past. Thank you for the kindness shown to me in this circle, which reminds me of those who treated me well when I was being scammed. I don't harbor that much hatred in my heart. I always feel sorry for those who have shown me kindness and haven't received anything in return, even though I've been scammed many times in this circle. My mindset has been distorted by these scams, and I can't remember those people clearly. I don't want to waste time thinking about those I dislike; I only remember those who have been kind to me.

I have failed again, feeling numb inside. I can't describe the feeling; it's not pain or regret—it's just that this situation no longer affects me deeply. I'm continuing to escape from here. Every time I come back, I get hurt and leave; it’s too painful. But I've grown up; if something makes me uncomfortable, I escape. I will disappear for a while again. I wish everyone makes big money. Keep it up.