If Bitcoin goes up again, I'm going to jump off a building. I'm going to commit suicide; I'm on the brink of collapse. If it doesn't drop and I get liquidated, I'll have an additional 20 million dollars in new debt. The pressure is overwhelming. After it reaches 100,000 dollars, I contacted several partners, including my previous boss, and asked them to collaborate on USDT. Last month, I lost 10 million dollars of my own money; I basically didn't do much afterward. Seeing Bitcoin rise to 100,000 again got me excited, and I planned to make a big move to recover all the money I lost before. I collaborated with several new accounts worth over a million USDT, and around 102,000, I started a full short position, continuously averaging down without any pullbacks. I haven't slept for three days; my emotions are in turmoil.

This round of increases is going to blow me up. My total positions combined with leverage have opened 2,000 Bitcoins worth nearly 200 million dollars. I'm really on the verge of breaking down. Last month, the highest I opened was only 600 Bitcoins worth 50 million dollars. Now, with several collaborations, the maximum reached 2,000 Bitcoins, and I'm still averaging down. I'm still cutting losses, and now there's less than 100 million dollars in positions left. I really am about to collapse.