Today 683 U, May 20, 2025

I'm tired, it's all about holding the positions, a bit disappointed in myself. Losing money makes me stubborn; when the market drops, I can confidently hold my positions until liquidation. When I finally manage to hold on, as soon as it rises and I start making a little profit, I get scared to death.

Holding positions can lead to zero, while I can only make around 10 U. It's really hard to change one's nature; I'm inherently inclined to this, a life of being cut like leeks. Can this habit of holding positions ever be cured? How? Experts, give me a recipe, and I'll go find a remedy myself.

Whenever contracts drop, I get flustered. When contracts are dropping, I lose interest in the planned daily airdrop project interactions. I've been doing airdrop interactions for a month and haven't made any money; my principal has even decreased.

Whenever BTC rises, I become passionate and excited, feeling it could keep rising, even to 1 million. I become ambitious, with endless fantasies. Then, when BTC drops by a point, my contract gets liquidated.

What a waste of excitement.

I've been waiting for BTC to rise, rise to 200,000 U, between 150,000 and 200,000, for a phenomenal project to appear, and I hit the jackpot, leveling up to A8.

But I've been waiting and waiting for many years. There have been some opportunities during this time, but I'm just not capable. I'm truly afraid I'll be waiting like this for a lifetime.

Now I'm moving forward with a heavy burden, really wanting to prove myself.

Today is 520, this year my love is in the crypto space, and I love you who are reading my diary.