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This article was written on 2022.12.30

I haven’t written anything like this for a long time. Since I entered the industry in 2017, the theme every year seems to be anxiety. I want to make money when I’m not making money, and I want to make so little money when I’m making money. It’s not that I’m not anxious this year, it’s just that 2022 seems to be worse than any year in the past, but I can inexplicably feel some endogenous changes and power happening. Today I suddenly thought, if I die in 2023, I hope people can see what I am thinking at the age of 31. That’s why I put pen to paper.

Since I can remember, no year seems to have passed as fast as this year. I don’t know how people who write history will close the coffin in 2022. At least to me, it is like a vacuum year. It is not like the student days, where every day is so similar. The rare emotions outside the classroom are so profound and affect future life. It's not like the first two years when I started working as a consultant. Everything was full of freshness and curiosity. Some small, wonderful, and awkward things made people remember them and miss them. It’s even less like the two years when I first entered the industry, when I saw the vast world outside myself every day, spent all my time staring at all the new happenings, and anxiously got to know everyone and participate in every activity. This bear market is not like the last bear market. I go in and out of the office every day, and I am happy even if I don’t have so many things to do. I am a thinker who is doing research and is happy even if I don’t have much to do. It's not like the bull market that lasted for more than 20 months. The drastic changes in wealth made me excited every day, and I was happily happy at what I thought was a small success. And 2022, it is empty, I can't even find a suitable footnote to describe it. After the New Year, when I thought the world was going to be symmetrically improving, our side chose to tilt, so there was a two-month lockdown, a battle that was lost, but it kept me awake at night. In two months, I studied almost all the immigration policies of various countries. I still follow them to this day, and I am still able to give immigration suggestions to different people. Then, I heard the sad news about a young elder, a senior whom I respected, who passed away suddenly. Then, I went to the microcosm and felt from east to west how huge the gap in the Crypto world has been formed between China and the United States during the three years of the epidemic.Then, from 3AC to LUNA to FTX, all promising methods were like a dream. Then the asymmetrical world never seems to converge. One end of the world is witnessing Ragnarok in Qatar and the crowning of the king, while the other end of the world is suffering from the shortcomings that other parts of the world have experienced in the past year or so. pain. And then, today, I think back on the vacuum of this year.