Yeah, compared to five years ago, I have indeed been very successful. Why do I still play contracts? Why do I still push myself into the public eye...
This question has been asked of me before. It’s not the first time I've sat alone in front of my computer late at night, staring at the candlestick charts, suddenly pondering this question: Why am I still working so hard? My account has a decent amount of funds; theoretically, I could just lie back and earn interest. Why do I still have to go through all this trouble?
To be honest, I have considered stopping. I first entered the crypto space in 2018; at that time, I didn’t understand anything. I would rush in when someone said a coin would rise, and as a result, I lost two-thirds in the first year. I was really a bit devastated; my friends advised me to quit. But I was not convinced; I didn't believe this market would only cut me. I didn’t believe that while others could make money, I could only be the one being harvested.
So I started to diligently chew through various trading knowledge: technical analysis, trading psychology, risk management... all relying on my own exploration. Those years were tough, but it was also that time that completely changed me, from a retail trader chasing trends to a trader with methods, systems, and logic.
When I was truly stabilizing my profits, actually no one clapped for me; there were more cold stares and misunderstandings. Now that I’m making money, others start asking: You've made a profit, why do you still stare at the market every day?
You ask me what I'm drawing? I've thought about this question many times too.
At first, it was really just for myself—playing contracts, pursuing capital efficiency. The spot market is slow, and the opportunity cycle is long; I don't like that passive waiting. But contracts, as long as you can control the risk, they are amplifiers. The problem is, most people can't control it, so they suffer heavy losses.
Then one day, I started trying to guide friends to trade, to follow my pace. Some got liquidated under my guidance and were heavily criticized at the time; others, however, made more than ten times profit in the crypto space for the first time. That feeling, to be honest, is complex for me. I had doubts about my own understanding and experience, but also moments of affirmation.
Since then, I've taken leading trades more seriously. Not just shouting slogans, but really explaining the logic behind each trade, guiding them to find direction from market structure, discussing stop losses, entry rhythms, and mindset management. Sometimes when they make mistakes, I am even more anxious than they are; sometimes when they make money, even if I lose on my own trade, I genuinely feel happy for them.
Why do I still want to do this?
Firstly, I like this market. No matter how others view it, this place gives me a sense of control, challenge, and achievement.
Secondly, I've seen too many people take the wrong path, get liquidated, and have their mentality collapse. If I don't speak the truth, they will only be harvested by more fake 'teachers.'
I don't think I'm some big shot; I can make mistakes too. But I dare say, I am a trader who has truly made it in the market. I respect risk and every person who trusts me.
Now I still watch the market every day, still study trends, still lead a group of people in trading—not because I'm poor, but because I know—in this market filled with temptation and lies, if you have the ability to be one of the 1% who are clear-headed, you have the responsibility to pull the rest forward.
Sometimes when I see a student send a message saying, 'Thank you, brother; this trade saved my account,' I feel that this is worthwhile.
It's not that I can't leave the market; it's that the market has helped me find value.
This is not an obsession; this is how I've chosen to live.
It took a long time to write these things; probably not many people will see this, but I'm not doing it to answer anyone, just to answer myself.