2. I am tired.☕
I sit here and wonder if I can have things under control. Can I? Are our lives really in our hands? What is it all about? Is God lurking around the corner? Will one of the many Jesuses help me in the end? Or are we living in a simulation? Or is none of this actually happening at all? Someone is pulling the strings in the background. Shuffling the cards. Creating another variant that no one accounted for at all. And setting traps. Strange traps. The aortas of hearts stop. Suddenly. You can't do anything at all. You just stop breathing.
Avoid the traps. They are set everywhere and in everything. Do not live a life in one big trap, so you do not regret at the end that you lived someone else's life all along. A life that THEY wanted you to live, because THEY themselves did not succeed in their life. Living in someone else's role. That you lost the courage and bravery to free yourself.
Strive for freedom and independence. Always.
