Life is truly full of ups and downs. After a liquidation, my heart feels as dead as ashes, and it's a sense of peace. When will I reach the height I desire? Perhaps none of us have the answer. At this moment in the rain, I sit on the balcony, thinking of my younger self. My mood isn't complicated. I always knew this day would come. It doesn't deserve sympathy; on the contrary, mockery is what it deserves. The wind and snow haven't crushed me; I can only go to the bathroom to wash my face, using water droplets to cover the corners of my eyes, grit my teeth, and continue on my way. Damn it, I'm not angry [bitter].