Continuing to play contracts is a bottomless pit; your strength is not enough to turn things around. You should change your approach.

Waking up to find that over 400,000 in loans has gone to zero, what the hell is Trump doing?
Right now, I feel like jumping off a building. Although I have thoughts of wanting to die, if I think about it carefully, being a deadbeat isn't so bad. Actually, being a deadbeat doesn't affect my life much now; I'm using various software with the help of relatives and friends. Any advice, friends? Should I sell the house and go all in, or just be a deadbeat and lay flat? $BTC