Starting from 2024, please don't touch virtual currencies anymore, no matter what happens. Brother, just go home. This is the Nth time I've asked my family for money for transportation to go home. My family doesn't trust me anymore and refuses to transfer money, instead, they directly bought me a train ticket. I'll go home first and figure things out later. I'm feeling lost now. I haven't recharged my phone, and just now, the thought of asking the bookie to reimburse my phone bill flashed through my mind several times, but I held back. Whenever something goes wrong, I want to buy low, go long, or open short positions. I'm 26 this year, and I've been doing this for 6-7 years. It's really enough. I'm fed up! My family won't give me money, so they directly bought me the train ticket. I'm broke, but I'll still go home. I could've stayed and worked daily gigs, but I decided to face it. Being broke is being broke. I'm only 26, I still have chances. I need to confront my demons first. It's really difficult. Whenever I think of difficulties, I want to buy low, go long, or open short positions, but I held back. It's hard to resist the urge. Every time something goes wrong, I want to play with virtual currencies. Quitting gambling is a matter of every minute and second. Like now, when my part-time salary arrives, instead of recharging my phone, I really want to put it into gambling, but I stopped. With my previous temper, I would've thrown even 10 yuan into it. Forget it. A new beginning in 2024.