When I had no money, I would be happy for a long time if I made a little money, and I would even use it to reward myself with "extravagance". There were many things I wanted to buy and eat. Now it's the opposite.
When I was working before, I was very happy to have a day off. I felt that I could do a lot of things in a day, but now I feel that a day is really short day after day. I was 19 years old when I first entered the cryptocurrency circle. There are too few beautiful memories worth remembering in these years. At the age of 19, I began to think about getting rich in the cryptocurrency circle in one or two years, and then I would have a great life. I want both youth and wealth. Now it seems that I am too greedy. Many people think that my age is not too old. But I personally think that my 20s are the best time. The people I met and the friends I talked to at this age don’t have much mixed things. Many people have enjoyed it. I think I have, but at that time my attention was all on the cryptocurrency circle, and I lost money every day. As for feelings, I don’t know if I used my heart.
Let me briefly explain. At that time, both of my girlfriends knew that I was playing with coins. At that time, I was playing with short-term contracts. I also talked to them about the basic principles of contracts. I said it in a more pleasant way, saying that I could win big with a small investment. I also talked to them about spot trading, but I didn’t have much principal. In addition, I was in a hurry at that time and wanted to make quick money. Later, my girlfriend worked and gave me a part of her salary every month. I lost it every time when I was helpless. Both of them were good. Later, maybe because I couldn’t see any hope, and their families also put pressure on me, they were divided. I could see hope because I knew that I could make money in the spot trading of the coin circle, which was my motivation to persist. They didn’t understand. They only knew that I was always losing money. Saying that they didn’t understand this is not to blame them, it’s really literal. In fact, I also understand the truth. I understood it at that time. When people are with you, they don’t have much left after a month’s salary is spent on food and drink. Then they give you a part of it, and you still lose it. It’s okay once or twice, but it’s normal to be unable to bear it after a long time. I don’t do anything to beautify myself. When they gave me their salary, I planned to save it for spot trading. In a word, I couldn’t control the contract at all. Other articles have mentioned that I made more than 100 contracts at most, and I hardly made any withdrawals, and I returned all of them later. Maybe it was because of this that I tasted the sweetness of making quick money and had no intention of saving money for spot trading. At that time, I was really unlucky and really slapped myself. When I was not in a relationship, I lost money and it was simply uncomfortable. When I had a girlfriend, I lost her salary, and it was a "deceptive" loss, because as mentioned earlier, I told my girlfriend that I would not play contracts anymore and save money for spot trading honestly, but I still couldn't help it. You know the feeling of losing money. When I broke up, it was not peaceful at all. At that time, I was addicted to contracts, and my character was very bad. I often quarreled with the other party over trivial matters. One quarrel before the breakup was also because of trivial matters. The other party said a lot of unpleasant words, meaning that he was distressed about his money. But, I am actually quite shameless. I would think in my heart: I am not using your money to eat, drink, gamble and have sex. I also live frugally. I just want to make money. When I make money, I will make up for it. Although I don’t say it, I know in my heart how you treat me.It's a self-consolation, I just feel that I'm quite frustrated. Before I made money, I also understood that if I didn't make money, I didn't make money, and it was useless to say anything. So, I didn't say a lot of things at that time. If I was scolded, I was scolded. If I was broken up, I was broken up. I had nothing to argue with others. The two broke up in the same way. There is a popular word about love recently, called "pure love". When I first heard it, I felt it was very childish. Later, I searched for this word out of curiosity. It turns out that it means: love without impurities. This is also what I have always longed for. Before I made money, what I thought was, I know how good you are to me, but give me some time, and I can give you everything when I have a future. I don't have high material requirements. I don't have to work every day, and I don't have to look at the price of what I want to eat and play. That's enough. Then the development of things is completely deviated from what I thought. This made me become "superstitious" and feel that everything is the work of fate.
After 20 years, I re-entered the cryptocurrency circle with 70,000 yuan of my own savings (working during the day and delivering food after work until the early morning). I have written about what happened afterwards in other articles. Compared with before, I am not so impetuous anymore, and my desire for material things has also decreased a lot. It is a kind of Buddhist mentality. From uni to sol, from tens of thousands to a8, I have no desire to show off to anyone during this period. In the past, if I made some money from the contract, I would want to let everyone around me know. Then after withdrawing the funds, the biggest expense is buying a car. A few months ago, my ex-boyfriend came to me once, which was quite embarrassing. Things have changed. I also talked to group friends on DingTalk, but it was nothing later. Now relatives and friends around me often want to introduce me to someone. For these, I can only say... What can I say? I can't explain it clearly. I'm just not interested.
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