好好送外卖吧，识知以外的钱是赚不到的

Brothers, it's so exhausting to be alive. I've told myself countless times that I won't play anymore, but in the end, I can't help it. I've had less than five hours of sleep in the last three days, and I keep giving myself a few slaps every day. The money was supposed to be with my mother for doing business. How should I confess to my parents? I don't want to see the disappointed look in their eyes anymore. I've endured a lot of suffering in the past, and at this moment, I just want to disappear from this world forever.