I really can't hold it in anymore. After turning off my phone, I cried a lot. Looking at everyone in the group making money, and then seeing the price of the coins continuously rise, as if there is no end. Today, after chasing the high and getting stuck while clearing out my other coins, I felt like a clown, posting a non-profitable return amidst a sea of red returns. The consolation from my group friends felt like a knife cutting through me. I frantically searched online for various statements about market tops, but all I found were voices about the soaring coin prices and that ETH is expected to reach 10,000 this year. I can't hold it in anymore, I really can't. Tomorrow, I must go all in; I will no longer be a clown.