Not long ago, I turned 200 dollars into a maximum of 3800 dollars. I planned to exit after reaching 5000 dollars, and then I showed off.

Yesterday, I successfully liquidated my position. It’s a lie to say I’m not sad; after all, before the liquidation last night, my account still had 3000 dollars.

Although my principal was only 200 dollars, after the actual liquidation, I had long forgotten that the principal was only 200 dollars. What I saw was the 3000 dollars, which represented my efforts and contributions over the past half month.

In the early stages of this process, opening positions went smoothly. The amounts were not large, and my mindset was relatively calm. The positions I opened were also well thought out, including leverage multiple, strictly following the strategy.

Later on, I always felt that the market was full of opportunities, forcing myself to find positions to trade, even thinking about shorting when I felt the price had risen too much.

After so many years, I am still a failed trader; I have never won in manual trading.

After all these years, I no longer think about becoming wealthy. The money I have now is enough for me to live an ordinary life; I have no loans for cars or houses, a small amount in the bank, and I'm already in my thirties, so I dare not play the zero again like a few years ago.

This has led me to continuously distance myself from the market. I don't want to do product development, trading, or business expansion, and I don't want to engage in offline socializing either. I haven’t manually executed any trades in the last three months. I haven’t even bought Ethereum manually, not even once, despite such price increases.

The only thing I still persist in is posting on the Binance Square, but they are mostly just filler content. Occasionally, there are some genuine feelings, but at most, they only move myself and others; they do not help those who see them make money, so what is filler content if not that?

The updates might be due to gaining over ten thousand followers on Binance Square during this period, which gives me the remaining motivation to update. The content is only about rebates and making small gains; to be honest, I’m just posting. Sometimes, I can’t even be bothered to grab the alpha activities during my noon nap, let alone spending time figuring out how to grab them. In 2021, I was one of the biggest scientists in the Binance NFT market, and I was very familiar with grabbing purchases on exchanges, but now I’m just lazy.

After this liquidation, I currently have an idea: that is, to open an account and operate with 200 dollars each time, allowing myself to fail 10 times, throwing away everything I have. The crypto world is originally a place where small bets can lead to big gains, and I have restarted a few times after going to zero with small funds. If I fail all of them, I will consider exiting the circle; my era has come to an end.