Don't panic, I'm 2.86

Can $ASR go back to 3.33? I don't want to make money anymore. I just want to get my principal back. Let me go long, that's fine, but you have to first have a big pullback before I have the courage to get in, right? It's going up every day, and I'm scared to get on board, ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah. I took this short position with 50u, lost so much, had repeated short positions during the day yesterday, thought there would be a crash last night, stayed up all night waiting, got so frustrated with myself. There was no crash, just a spike that hit me. I'm about to lose it, so annoyed, so annoyed, it's driving me crazy.