Have faith and try to think as positively as possible.

and.... broke again... I did the best I could my brothers, Im learning with every mistake... but in my country and in my situation it's so hard...

worst of all is the depression I've been carrying for long time and all my mental problems (ADHD, BDP) it just get worst very month and i don't want to go back to mental hospital...

brothers, just wish me luck, and if you want to give me advices, i will read them all.
(I wouldn't mind if someone as a joke wants to give me 1k or 10k as a joke and be my trade guru, as a joke xd)