Write a diary to vent my emotions.

I was cheated when I asked someone to write a paper for a water class these days. I was sad.

Then I asked someone to learn and brush the course, but he mistakenly brushed my exam for one course (I got 6 points instead of 100 points), which had a great impact on my final grade.

Let’s talk about this semester. It may be the most unsuccessful semester in my life.

I originally planned to join the school team to participate in the ACM competition this semester, but I lost the opportunity due to my laziness. During the preparation period, I came across CSGO, played on the 5e platform, and started playing online cages on 5e. I also played online cages on other websites. From mid-March to mid-April, I lost almost 20,000 yuan in a month (my usual living expenses, New Year’s money and tutoring money). Because of this, I broke up peacefully with my girlfriend who I had been dating for almost a year (I think I deserved it. Online gambling hurts people. I didn’t want her to see me like this. I was muddle-headed during that time. In the end, I was running out of money and confessed to her and then I proposed a breakup). During that time, I was in a daze. I thought about making money by playing online cages and was addicted to CSGO alchemy. It was my own fault. There is nothing to say. Adults should be responsible for their own behavior.

Let me talk about how I got to know the cryptocurrency circle. When I was addicted to CSGO, A B recommended some cryptocurrency videos to me. Then one day I clicked in and started my journey in the cryptocurrency circle, and then to the current contract explosion. I feel that my life is quite a failure. To be honest, I am not afraid of you laughing at me. After graduating from high school, I chose to repeat the year because my exam results were not satisfactory. After experiencing the most hard-working year in my life, I got up at about six o'clock every morning and went to bed at about twelve o'clock at night. I didn't talk much with others every day. I studied quietly by myself and took the initiative to leave the group. At that time, I had a dream and could fight without hesitation. Indeed, my grades improved steadily in that year and met my expectations, but I didn't expect that I would be too nervous during the college entrance examination and make serious mistakes. From the first day of Chinese, my hands began to shake violently when I wrote, and my brain went blank. I had no idea what to do with math, the subject I was best at. My scores in several large-scale mock exams were around 135. Math in that college entrance exam was quite easy, but I only got 94 points. As for the subsequent exams, I became more and more panicked.The high school retake ended in a mess, and the provincial ranking only improved by a few hundred places compared to the first year.