Most of the time, I don't speak because I can't think of what I need from you. I don't need recognition because there is so much unknown between us, and I have always felt that what I know has never been enough compared to what I do. I don't need a relationship of interests because we haven't established one, and I'm not good at interacting with people, communicating, or even dislike excessive contact with others. Because I don't want to gain anything from you, nor do I have the energy to expend anything on you. So my joys and sorrows are unrelated to your joys and sorrows. That's it.