Not long ago, I used $200 to reach a maximum of $3,800. I originally planned to exit after reaching $5,000 and show off.

Yesterday, I successfully blew up my account. It's not true that I'm not upset; after all, there were still $3,000 in my account before the account blew up last night.

Although the principal was only $200, I had long forgotten that the principal was $200 after the actual blow-up. What I saw in my eyes was the $3,000 principal, which represented my efforts and contributions over the past half month.

In the early stages of this process, opening positions went smoothly. The amounts weren't large, so my mindset was relatively calm. The trades I opened were also well thought out, including leverage, and I strictly followed the strategy.

Later on, I always felt that the market was full of opportunities, forcing myself to find trades, and even took some positions just because I felt the market had risen too much and wanted to short.

After all these years, I’m still a failed trader; I really haven’t won manually.

After so many years, I’ve long stopped thinking about becoming very rich. The money I have now is enough for me to live a normal life. I have no loans for cars and houses, a small amount of savings in the bank, and I’m in my thirties now. I don’t dare to play zeroing out like a few years ago.

This has led me to constantly distance myself from the market. I don’t want to do product development, trading, or business expansion, and I don’t want to engage in offline socializing either. In the past three months, my manual trading activities have been zero. I haven’t even bought Ethereum manually once despite its price increase.

The only thing I’m still persistently doing is posting on Binance Square, but they are mostly filler content. Occasionally, there are some genuine feelings, but at most, they only touch my own heart and that of others; they don’t help anyone else make money. So, what is filler content if not that?

The updates may also be due to gaining over ten thousand followers on Binance Square during this period, which is the only remaining motivation to update. The content is only about rebates and small profits. Honestly, I just post about small profits; sometimes I’m too lazy to even rush for alpha activities during my noon nap, let alone spend time figuring out how to rush for them. In 2021, I was one of the biggest scientists in the Binance NFT market, and I was quite familiar with rush purchases on exchanges. But now, I’ve become this lazy.

After this blow-up, I currently have an idea: to open an account and operate with $200 each time, allowing myself to fail 10 times, throwing away everything I own. The crypto world is a place where small bets can lead to big returns. I’ve restarted a few times after zeroing out with small funds, and if I fail all the time, I’ll consider leaving the crypto space; my era has also come to an end.