Today 132 U, July 2, 2025

I really feel so hopeless, I feel like crying in this oppressive state. I didn't eat anything yesterday, and today I ate a few bags of cookies that were left over from before, which seem to be expired for a year. I don't know where the road is. I am a gambler; I always thought I wasn't, but actually, I always have been. I'm a fool, I was wrong, very wrong. I want to die, but I can't bear to. I have really failed in life; living is so exhausting.

I don't know where the future road is; I have lost many beautiful things that will never come back.

The most failed person in the world is me.