Happy Dragon Boat Festival everyone! Happy Children's Day!

The holiday is over, and I believe everyone has found their peace during these days.

A casual photo taken in the park.

Since last week, BTC and ETH have plummeted, and those who have been long for a while are probably feeling miserable.

So am I, but I cleared my positions before the Dragon Boat Festival, and I only have 20 dollars left. I paid off part of the online loan and borrowed 1,000 yuan from a friend to have fun with my girlfriend. These days, I am terrified of debt collection messages, unable to find peace while playing.

My girlfriend is a great person. I haven't told anyone about borrowing from online loans, and she never likes to owe others money or borrow money. As a student, she delights in the more than 10,000 yuan in her Alipay account every day, saying: 'Baby, I made two cents on Alipay today, heh heh, so happy.'

Today, the holiday is also over. On the way to the high-speed train station, my girlfriend found out I borrowed 500 yuan from a friend. She was not happy and asked me, 'Did you borrow the money we used for meals before?' She really dislikes borrowing money and feels guilty about the money she lent me. She then asked me: 'You earn 6,000 yuan a month, 2,000 to see me, 2,000 for rent and food, where did the other 2,000 go?' I was speechless and could only dodge the question, saying I didn't know, it just disappeared as I used it. In fact, I couldn't be clearer; the money was all used to maintain the online loan without overdue payments.

Like many young couples, we would cuddle for a while at the subway station exit before entering the high-speed train station, sharing kisses and hugs. This time, however, I had tears that shouldn't have been there. When I hugged her, I secretly wiped away the tears I was holding back, which weren't many. I was worried that my debts wouldn't allow me to give her a good life, that I couldn't provide her with any future, and that years of love would crumble because of this debt.

After getting on the train, I still exchanged affectionate words with her. The train hadn't arrived yet, and I was sitting on a bench on the platform, scrolling through my phone. My girlfriend sent me a message saying: 'Return it to xxx,' and I saw she sent me 500 yuan on Alipay. At that moment, I really couldn't hold back; tears just streamed down my face with the wind. Guilt and sadness were liberated at that moment; it's quite funny to say, the snot wrapped around my clothes in a half-circle with the wind.

I don't smoke, and I don't know if smoking can help relieve my emotions. I only find the second-hand smoke on the platform unpleasant. I really wish life could go back to six months ago, to slap myself and return the money in my stock account to the loan platform.

Leveraging in cryptocurrency might be my only chance to turn things around; at least here, there's something to gamble on, to bet on my life, to bet on my future. Welcome everyone to communicate more, to improve together, and support each other!