Why is it that when the color is red we don't have money to buy, and when it is green we have some, so we buy until it turns red? Is it a trick, or is it just how it is? One day we will succeed. I have lost a lot and I have hope, but money comes to us with difficulty through hard work and it takes time. We work and we have a dream that one day we will succeed and we won't need to do hard work every day just to eat and drink. Sometimes we doubt whether I am living in an illusion and one day I will wake up as if I am just a failure. I have not succeeded here or there. It's terrifying, isn't it?