Same burden. Sigh.

I feel so upset and I really want to cry. I am a beast, and my parents are also beasts. I don't want to live anymore, I can't stand it. It's been less than two months, and I am really so broken. I was already severely depressed and wanted to commit suicide. I originally planned to make a profit this year and then donate all the money to help my fans, and then I would commit suicide. As a result, I kept losing money and went into debt again. I am really so broken. It had just been less than two months since I cleared my debts, and I had over 10 million dollars in savings, but lost it all. Then I lost over 20 million dollars of investor money. I am in so much pain, I really don't want to live anymore.