Tomorrow I am going to Dunhuang, planning to do some quiet reflection for a while.
I didn't write a single article during the entire May Day holiday and hardly worked at all, and it felt great.
During this May Day holiday, I achieved a moment of enlightenment, feeling that my state of mind has improved even just a little compared to before.
Who are we really living for?
Who are people earning money for?
Now that I've made money, who should I spend it on and how should I spend it?
Looking at my closet full of old clothes, I can't help but have the above questions.
This summer, the only clothes I can find are old ones from several years ago; the oldest shorts were probably bought seven or eight years ago, and some were even purchased before my marriage. After trying them on, there's hardly anything left to wear.
Time flies, it's been seven or eight years in the blink of an eye, and my child is already 6 years old.
So the question arises: I have decent financial conditions, why do I still not have a few decent pieces of clothing?
The answer is that I am very busy and do not pay attention to dressing up; I am used to being sloppy.
So if you're so busy, earning money but have no time to spend it, what’s the point?
Damn, I've stumped myself.
I think I should live for myself.
So why are you so tired?
My second child is suffering from kidney failure, and although it can be replaced, it's still a painful process. Do I want to end up like that?
Or do I really have to be forced to stop once more before I can truly contemplate these issues?
To be honest, I have always wanted to drive around China, and I even impulsively bought a car mattress not long ago, but I have been held back by various reasons and couldn't go.
But this time I don’t want to wait anymore. After arranging the upcoming matters in today’s meeting and watching the Champions League match between Barcelona and Inter Milan tomorrow morning, I will fly to Dunhuang.
The reason I want to go to Dunhuang is that I heard Luo Zhenyu talk about it last year, and after looking into it, I think it's quite an interesting place.
I haven't been to the northwest, so why not start from Dunhuang?
Starting this year, my mindset has undergone a huge change.
I have begun to cherish the present life and no longer attempt to control the future.
I have started to better manage parent-child and family relationships.
I have begun to try to balance family and work, although I still spend most of my time on work.
I have started to cultivate some new hobbies to satisfy some of my wishes.
I have begun to believe in the team instead of carrying everything myself.
I have started to regulate my body and attempt to have a regular routine.
I have even started to exercise lightly and lose weight, and I have already lost 5 pounds.
When I started to integrate more into life, my work actually didn't have much of an impact.
When I started trying a new way of living, I felt like I transformed from the shell of my past, as if my life started to be led by me.
This feeling is quite magical. After experiencing this, I feel that many external things are no longer important, like writing articles.
Why the hell should I write articles for you bunch of idiots to read, and after reading, not even contribute a single piece of data?
Can’t I just lie down or do something else during this time?
The reason I used to write was out of a desire for traffic, wanting to make some impact.
And now I feel that I no longer need it, nor do I want to force myself to think about topics anymore.
If I want to write, I will write, and if I don’t want to write, then I’ll just chill; why should life be so tiring?
People will always be troubled by the things they want.
The more you want, the greater the troubles, but when you really start to let go, you might receive some unexpected joys.
I will be back before the offline member meeting in Hangzhou Oasis on May 18, and I’ll share my insights and reflections then. For the remaining time, sorry, but I want to keep it for myself.
Good night.
I am the founder of the Web3 Oasis, an expert in recovering crypto assets.
