with that amount of money you don't need to use such high leverage, use at least 5x, you get scared anyway but it gives you more margin when making a strong move like this

I am sweating, yesterday I put on shorts, it started to rise, I changed it yesterday, and everything started to go down. It's the last thing I have, a year's work thrown to hell. I don't know if I should hold on or get out of this crap for good.