There is still so much money, thinking about doubling it every day, it won't take long before it's all gone.

I have so much debt, all from credit card installments, I have to repay 38,000 every month, and I don't know what to do. There’s only this little balance left, my salary is only 4,000 a month, my parents are divorced, I secretly mortgaged the house, my mom would be furious if she found out, my girlfriend also left me, and now I'm 36 years old. Sometimes I really think about ending my own life, but I'm too cowardly to do it.