Is this still playing contracts?

I've bet all my possessions, may the heavens bless me 🙏🙏, I've been in and out of positions for a few days, it's been a torment, I can't sleep at night feeling so much pressure. Just thinking about how my entire possessions could support my grandmother for two years makes me feel so bad. I want to be calm, but I've already lost over 200u, and I feel reluctant to not try to earn it back 😩😩😩