You are trying to carve a boat to seek a sword, right?

Feeling blocked inside. A few days ago, I selected five to short and lost on all, then cut my losses. Next, I went long on all and lost again. Yesterday, I went short on all, lost and cut my losses again. This afternoon, I started with five longs again. And again, all were losses. This means I've tossed a coin twenty times and haven't guessed right at all.