Waking up to find that over 400,000 in loans has gone to zero, what the hell is Trump doing?

Right now, I feel like jumping off a building. Although I have thoughts of wanting to die, if I think about it carefully, being a deadbeat isn't so bad. Actually, being a deadbeat doesn't affect my life much now; I'm using various software with the help of relatives and friends. Any advice, friends? Should I sell the house and go all in, or just be a deadbeat and lay flat? $BTC