The market is too difficult for the captain to operate 😂😂

Once I thought I could be considered a trader, staring at the fluctuating market on my phone, feeling that with just a flick of my fingers I could easily earn hundreds of dollars, and indeed I experienced that time. I believe many people have gone through prosperous days, thinking trading is an easy task, hoping these days of profit could last.

After I resigned from my job, a 20-square-meter rented room in the urban village became my trading battlefield. No matter how bright the sun is outside or how good the weather is, it has nothing to do with me; going days without stepping outside is the norm because my mind is solely focused on trading. When the market is good, my account balance rises quickly, and I bask in the profits in the square, bragging a bit. Sometimes I even fantasize about buying a house, changing cars, and traveling with my family. However, since the unfortunate events started to happen, the whole trend has reversed. I feel like I've lost my trading ability; the once self-assured golden touch no longer exists. I’m not afraid of being laughed at by my buddies; this is my recent true feeling about trading. Now I am cautious and hesitant, afraid to enter the market and worried about losing money.

Every day I witness real examples of losing money around me; I am also experiencing a state of drawdown, feeling the pain of losing that money. After the grid stopped, I withdrew some funds, and until now, I haven’t entered the market. I’m not even prepared to open the app during this cooling-off period. I want to use this cooling-off period to restrict myself from opening this software, truly achieving a state of empty thoughts to finally enjoy the fleeting happiness after short-term profits. The grid has been running for a few days, counting the drawdown, not too much and not too little; let’s spend it first.

Many people say it’s difficult to trade recently, and I don’t know when it’s easier. Perhaps smooth times are when it’s easier to trade, while tough times are always difficult. Those who find it hard are usually the ones in a losing state. However, during this downtrend, the number of people losing has increased; those who shorted at the bottom have been hit, and chasing the rise has also been shaken back and forth, causing many to temporarily withdraw from this battlefield.

In the past couple of days, I’ve been updating less because my focus in life is no longer on trading. Spending time at home with my parents is fulfilling, but this happy time is about to come to an end; I can’t stay home any longer. I’ve conceived many things I want to do this year, but fearing I can’t do everything well, I need to streamline my plans.