Welcome to the market sister!
The financial markets as old as from pre-1500s are here to stay & the only way for it to survive is by eating your money to achieve liquidity.
So learn the game before you play.
You broke the basic trading rule:
“Never risk what you can’t afford to lose.”
“No matter how smart you think you are, the market is always smarter.” — William J. O’Neil.
Reboot!