Today 0 U, April 7, 2025

Life is hard, I haven't written in my diary for a while, but I still need to write something to record the darkest days of my life. No matter how painful the process is, as long as the final result is good, looking back, you will find that the most difficult moments, as long as you endure, those things that almost took your life now will only shape who you will be in the future. It's just that right now, I really find it hard; it feels like time is passing very slowly, very slowly, and it's very hard to bear.

Now I owe 18,300 yuan in debt, which is the thing I feel most guilty and the most pressure about. My brother helped me kindly, but I couldn't repay on time. For me, owing money feels worse than borrowing money. If you ask where a person's bottom line is, it is when you have nothing to eat; at that time, your behavior is the most reflective of your bottom line.

Now even dogs are doing much better than I am.

I can't go back home for the Qingming Festival; I've fallen out with my parents. I am a wasteful child, and I have hurt them so much to reach this point.

I have already made an appointment with the bank to submit a loan application offline on Wednesday, hoping to get the loan approved. However, I had overdue payments on my Alipay Huabei, so the hope of getting the loan is probably very small.

Now I am also using my spare time to deliver takeout, but I only manage to complete three orders a day, earning 10 yuan, but it is really exhausting.

There is an older brother I met while trading cryptocurrencies, who invested in a team of 20 lawyers to do the business of unfreezing bank cards. He promised to let me work part-time temporarily without charging any fees before the bank card is unfrozen.

Now I am in despair, seeing no hope. It should also be the golden time for shorting in the cryptocurrency market. Just thinking about doubling BTC means needing a lot of capital; relatively speaking, it becomes easier when it drops. For me, I am now also very confident that BTC will easily return to the 5xxx range, and ETH returning to three digits seems effortless, while altcoins might just be air.

Having experienced 94, 312, 519, the big black swan in the cryptocurrency world may not have come yet. Have you ever seen BTC at three digits? As long as everyone in the cryptocurrency world thinks BTC will reach three digits, it is highly likely to happen. If the US stock market opens and plummets again, BTC should also go down. The 9th is a point in time to observe, and now I don't even qualify to sit at the table; right now, I only have the life of delivering takeout.