Concealing and hiding, no wonder losing money

I lost all my ETH, it's so painful. Over two years of salary gone, I lost around 80,000 USD from 2021 until today. I originally lost over 50,000 USD, but made a little profit these past two days. This morning, I lost everything back, including principal and interest. After working for 11 years, about 9.8 years of my salary is gone. I'm in my thirties, and my youth has been wasted. I usually don't dare to eat or buy expensive things, and now it's all gone for nothing. I accept it; I know I was greedy. I'm so sad. I originally wanted to buy a house for my parents, who are over 70, and once I got back on track, I wanted to buy for them, but instead, I'm losing more and more. I have no strength to get back up. I'm really sorry to my parents; I really deserve this.

I didn't expect the big players in the crypto world to be so heartless. I can't blame them; I blame myself. My youth is gone, and I can't even afford to buy a house for my elderly parents. After years of working, I could have bought a car or a house, but here I am, losing everything. It really hurts to say it; I'm so disappointed. Even if I could get half of my principal back, that would be good.