Here is the true genius, that is me, with initial capital of forty U, recording my real capital at one million.
One thousand U seemed like a grand dream, and after I reached one thousand one hundred U or even more, I also withdrew U twice. I seemed to see a clear path leading to a bright life, which made my blood boil, but the subsequent losses made me anxious. I realized I still had a lot to do, and the huge drawdowns kept me awake at night, filled with anxiety. I went from being full of confidence to being deeply worried. I began to fear, fearing that I would once again face liquidation, fearing that all my fantasies would turn into bubbles. Can I make it to the other shore? I can lose countless times, but I must win the last time! But this time, will it be the countless times I lost or the one time I won? I don’t know.
The feelings of frustration linger, and here I am, in this moment of hardship. 😭😭
