Once before, I was already a few hundred dollars short of making back my investment, but I didn’t stop and lost money again. This time, I was too embarrassed to tell my family, so I took out the new building certificate and the housing provident fund, and I withdrew 38,000 yuan. Then I was unwilling to borrow money to play, and lost it all again. I slapped myself hard and cried bitterly. I cut myself hard with a blade, and blood flowed all over the floor. Later, I was afraid that my family would come back and see it, so I cleaned up the blood, bandaged the wound, and went to sleep. A few days later, I started to apply for many credit cards, and started to use loans to pay off loans. Guangda Jiaotong University, Bank of China, and basically all of them except China Construction Bank and Industrial and Commercial Bank of China did not issue me a card. However, credit cards are not good for people with poor self-control. After a period of silence, I saw others posting about making a lot of money on WeChat Moments, so I started playing again. At that time, I thought that I had lost so much money before. When can I make back my investment when I opened 100 or 200? I started to place heavy positions, 10,000 at a time. I could see other people’s large positions on the software, and when others opened positions, I would open a counter-position with them. When I was opening an order, I suddenly remembered the line in Young and Dangerous: You see that unlucky guy, he bets on the banker and you bet on the player. In the end, I lost and others won. In this way, I lost all the credit limits of all my credit cards, a total of 93,000. Because my family helped me pay off the debts several times, I really didn’t know how to ask for it, and I didn’t dare to tell my family, so I took out the deed of the new building that my parents bought for me to get married and mortgaged it. The building was bought for more than 400,000 at the beginning, but the location was not developed and the price dropped, so I only got 300,000 in exchange, which I lost again on the same day. $SXP $SYN $DAR