For today's space, I forced myself to sleep at 1am yesterday morning, and set five alarms to get up at 6am to get ready. First I got up to pee and poop, then smoked a cigarette and had breakfast (one fried dough stick and two eggs). I was full of confidence. People who didn't know would think I was preparing for the college entrance examination. But the whole fucking process took three hours. Except for yeah yeah yeah, I just stuttered. Fuck you.