With a salary of seven to eight thousand, saving every month, recharging three hundred, five hundred, a thousand, or five thousand, it inexplicably all got lost. I hadn't updated the software for a long time and only knew that I had lost quite a bit of money. Recently, after an update, I suddenly realized that I had lost so much without even noticing. I thought for a long time about what I was really getting out of waking up early and working hard just to give all my meager earnings to others. I never thought of myself as a gambler. It's fine if I suffer a bit or work hard, but thinking about how my wife and child are stuck with someone like me really feels like bad luck for them.

Some time ago, I had a month-long cooling-off period, and every day I thought about my past actions. I consider myself an experienced player. This month, I was quite accurate in predicting market trends, and sometimes I felt confident in myself. I don't know why, but when it comes time for me to act, my operations become distorted. Sometimes I clearly know it's not the right time to open a position or that the direction is wrong, yet I still can't control myself. Perhaps this is the nature of gambling!

There are only a few days left in the cooling-off period, and I've deeply reflected for a month. In the end, I plan to throw in a few hundred U. If my skills are up to par, that should barely be enough. Of course, if I could trade spot, the success rate would be much higher. Unfortunately, I just can't gather the funds. At that time, I’ll keep a record of the actual trading. If I lose it all, then it really should come to an end.