The last few thousand to get some little puppies

Back and forth, I have lost more than 700,000, everything has been ruined: business, family, friends, career, everything has become a mess because of me. I truly apologize to those around me. I feel that living has become very meaningless. Today, I find it hard to sleep. I am a thorough gambler; gamblers shouldn’t be in this world. Living is just wasting food!