I see no hope, I don't want to persist anymore, I'm exhausted, very tired, maybe I'm really not suited for trading.

Last night my account balance was only $13, this morning I made it to $80, anxious to profit yet afraid of losing, both trades went against me and I lost it all back.

Since the 18th, when I couldn't pay back the bank loan.

Since the 19th, when I was anxious to profit and heavily invested, I started losing, and from there it has been a continuous loss, to the point where I can't stop.

On the 20th, I started with $10, and in two days I made it to $600, but then heavily invested and lost it all in minutes.

On the 23rd, I started with $100, and in two days I made it to $500, but again, heavily invested and lost it all in minutes.

On the 24th, I continued starting with $100, and in two days made it to $460, but then I heavily invested again and lost all three trades.

On the 26th, I continued with a $100 deposit, and yesterday morning I made it to $280, but still ended up losing it all.

On the 27th, I recharged $50 and continued, last night I lost down to $13, stayed up all night and made it to $80, but this morning I still lost it all.

I can't even remember how many times I've blown up in these past few days, from making over $300 on the 19th to now having an overall loss of over $600. I've exhausted all the funds I could access, and the main issue is my mindset. Since the 18th, after repaying $27,000 in bank loans, it's just like I'm going crazy.