When you find that you can't turn things around no matter how hard you try your whole life, you suddenly remember the power of taboos and finally embark on a path of practice that will make you skinned and cramped.
This is a practice that goes deep into your bones. If you don't have talent, then keep learning and practice countless times until everyone thinks you are born with it and no one thinks you have wasted effort.
When you are so fast that you react instinctively, you are a talent in the eyes of others. Only one in a million can come out. Practice the pattern, cognition, discipline, and mentality repeatedly. Don't worry too much.