I am really serious right now. I use prescription drugs as toys. I might actually die in the next few days. After breaking my hand, I can't play games and spend every day at home taking drugs. Last time I got prescribed medication, I was just messing with it. I've hallucinated several times, and if no one is watching me, I almost jumped off a building. There's no way around it; severe depression and schizophrenia are too painful. Only medication allows people like us to feel happiness. Why do I have to live such a miserable life?

I am now speechless and can't talk. Yesterday, I took four prescription pills at once during my shift, and I was sent to the hospital as if I was dying. I couldn't speak for a long time, and my brain couldn't breathe independently. I almost didn't make it last night, and I still need to be observed in the hospital. My mind is a mess; I am much more awake now, but my brain is damaged. I might become a fool in the future. $ETH