Playing this relies entirely on mindset and observing trends; if the mindset is lost, it becomes chaotic.

No matter how awesome or how much I earn, every time I encounter a big order, I get super anxious. Every time there's a big order, I end up losing both my capital and profits, I can't take it anymore. When will I break even? I've lost $7000 because of this ridiculous situation. I can't believe I still got this at this point. Do they feel sorry for me?