Sister Goddess, why is it that LPT clearly made 9000 but sold at a loss of 5400? Do you know the reason?

Please don't let me earn anymore, I don't want to make money anymore, I am really scared. Recently, I've been trading Bitcoin in both directions, yesterday I went short at 110,000 and then reversed to go long, I thought I would finally take a loss, but it ended up being profitable again.
I don't dare to open trades anymore, I feel like something is off, can the heavens really allow me to win for a whole month? I'm very anxious, there are only 2 days left in May...