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More than two months lost over a million, learned a lot. A drink led to being tempted from shorting (at 81,000) to going long, then reversed and fell, tempting me into shorting at the lowest point. This resulted in a single loss of over 400,000, and I had already paid countless tuition fees before. I was starting to slowly recover my losses, but after one drink, I lost that money. Initially, my own capital had more than doubled, and after one drink, I also dragged my trading brothers into the mess, though not much, I feel ashamed. Life is a journey, step by step, meal by meal, starting over.