Don't mess with contracts, first clarify the spot market

I want to quit the cryptocurrency world, I'm really so exhausted. Maybe I just don't have the fate to make money in this space. When I go long, it falls; when I go short, it rises. It feels like it's targeting me all the time. My mom wants me to find a good person to marry and stop gambling, but I'm not willing to give up. What should I do? I don't want to work, I just want to earn some money in cryptocurrency and then lie flat for the rest of my life. But it's really so hard. I want to ask if you all have really made money in cryptocurrency? If this continues, I might have to jump into the sea. Boohoo~