You may not like what I have to say, but no one here really cares about you.
The thing is regardless of what your "friends" or fav "influencers" say, the truth is none of them are really ever going to help you.
The only one who can help you is yourself.
No one cares about your journey or hardships bro (applies to me too).
The world is real.
They only see winners.
You either make it, or you don't.